Earlier this week, actor Anthony Rapp revealed that when he was 14 years old, Kevin Spacey allegedly pinned him on a bed and "tried to get with me sexually." In the wake of the sexual assault allegation, Spacey was widely criticized for using his coming out story as a shield, and Netflix shut down production of House Of Cards. Several other people have now come forward accusing Spacey of behaving inappropriately toward them—and that includes a harrowing account of a man who says he had a sexual relationship with Spacey when he too was a 14-year-old.
New York Magazine interviewed the now-48-year-old man, an "East Coast" artist who asked that his name not be used ("I have worked really hard to have a nice life and feel safe, and I’m not giving that up for him"). He recounts how he met a then-22-year-old Spacey when he was a 12-year-old student at an acting camp. The two later ran into each other while waiting on line at Shakespeare in the Park two years later.
He was kind of in high seduction mode and gave me his phone number and asked me to call him. He said, “I want to see you, and I want you to come to my apartment.” He said he’d always been really drawn to me at the acting classes, but had stayed away because I was 12. So I’m like [laughs] … now that I was 14. That was probably a 15-minute walk, and then I went back to be with my parents... I felt like I’d won the lottery. A little drunk with it and very delighted with the attention.
The man visited Spacey at his Upper West Side apartment the next day, where their sexual relationship began. They met several times after that for sex, with Spacey telling him that "there were producers who were really interested in me as an actor and that he wanted to get me auditions. He talked about some play and how he wanted to get me an audition for it. He hadn’t seen me act since I was 12."
It all came to a head when Spacey allegedly tried to rape him during another rendezvous (at that point, the man had turned 15).
He told me to come over, and I went to the apartment. And I thought we were going to kiss and tell each other we loved each other and I was going to go. But he wanted to have sex, and this time he wanted to fuck me, which had never happened to me before.
He said he wanted to top you?
He did not say. He just did. I guess he must have come up behind me and yanked down my baggy jeans, and he goes to fuck me and I’m like, “No, I don’t want to.” And he pushes hard, and grabs me, and starts shoving up against my asshole, and it hurts like a motherfucker. I again tell him no, and he tries again. I am strong enough, thank God, both somewhere in my brain and in my body, to get him off of me. I’m sturdy, thankfully. I throw him off of me and I run crying down the stairs and out into the street and then suck it all up and go have dinner.
Did he penetrate you?
No. I don’t think so. I know it hurt, so something went somewhere to the point where it hurt, but I remember feeling like I got him. I did not feel like I had been fucked.
What would you call it?
I always have said, “He tried to rape me.” I told him I didn’t want that, he went again to do it, I told him no, he went again and pushed harder and grabbed me and pushed harder. I don’t know how I would see that as anything besides an attempted rape, which I was able to thwart.
The two didn't see each other in person again after that incident, and it took the man years to accept that he had been assaulted and sort through his complicated, confused emotions about him: "I was just full of this lust. And that’s why, one year later, even after he tried to rape me, some part of me wanted to see him again."
Now, he thinks of Spacey as a sexual predator and a pedophile: "I would call him that to his face." As for why he came forward now, he said it was "the low-level guilt that I’ve kind of carried all this time of knowing, in my brain, that these people repeat offend. They don’t stop. It’s never one and done." He also expressed gratitude to actor Anthony Rapp for opening the door to have these conversations in public.
Before this account was published, Spacey's spokesperson said the actor was "seeking treatment" for his behavior. At least two other men have come forward to say Spacey had sexually harassed or assaulted them when they were younger.